Dieter's Nightmares 123106

Wow. Here we go again right? I weighed in this morning at 243 pounds. That's 2 pounds more than I weighed in 5 months ago when I joined the weight loss contest. My poor team. I warned them though. Anywho, back to today. I joined an online diet community, bought myself some stressbeating Relacore (that's what it claims) and resolved to lose 100 pounds in one year. That's 2 pounds each week, with two weeks to not make goal. I can do it, right? Right! Yes, because I have been so successful already. Joined a gym and quit. Started a walking regimen twice and had both partners quit. Didn't want to or make myself walk or exercise alone. Spent money we didn't have on exercise equipment that I don't use and have no where but the garage to go with. Oh yeah, lots...bought a treadmill and gave it to charity. Bought a bike. Bought a gazelle. Bought a stepper. Bought a core training ball. As if owning them would make me thin. So what makes today different? The fact that yesterday I made 3 dozen pralines and have eaten 3 already today. The fact that the boys and I baked gingerbread a few days ago. Maybe it's that I made 7 layer dip today and had it with chips, 1/2 a sandwhich with hard salami and turkey and dressing on sweet fresceta bread and a twice baked potato all for lunch. What's worse? I am starving now. Okay, no I am not...obviously, but, I could eat. I really could. Oh, I did have coffee and grapefruit for breakfast, that helps, right? It's new year's eve and the littlest of the nest is home with us, so we'll probably eat and watch tv or play board games tonight. Hope tomorrow's dreams are a little sweeter, here's to a bright new year.